The ever increasing sexual desire that R & B superstar, R. Kelly has for women way younger than he is might not be extremely popular out of the music industry, however, in the music industry, it can be considered an open secret. Although the singer has finally responded to the many accusations that have been put up against him in the last 20 years. So What is R Kelly admitting to in his new song? His 19 minute new single which is only comparable to the locked in the closet series which the singer released between 2005 and 2012 is not exactly an admittance of his many sins. It seems to focus more on the reasons that the singer did what he did and why he should not be blamed. Let’s take a peep into R.Kelly’s new song and try to better understand what the song really stands for.
It is no longer news that there is a growing list of allegations against R & B superstar R.Kelly. Although the many accusations against R.Kelly have been on for a very long time, the singer chose to remain silent until some weeks ago when he released a 19 minute song which is believed by many to be his response to the ever increasing accusations that have been put up against him over the years. The superstar singer released a song on song titled “I admit” on the 23rd of July. This song which was released on Soundcloud by the CEO of Audiodream Records fires shots at the singer’s accusers, as well as journalists that made tales about R.Kelly having a “sex cult” popular.
Although prior to the release of R.Kelly’s latest song, he had not released a song in a very long while, his latest track is very much like his much older hit songs. In this song, the R & B star seems to talk about all the accusations that have been directed at him by both his fans, journalist and the United States Media for about 20 years.
The song begins with the line: “I admit I done made some mistakes/ And I have some imperfect ways/I admit I helped so many people/And them same damn people turned fake”, these lines were said prior to the singer putting some reference on him not completing high school, his inability to read, his absence from church. He goes on to say: “I done fucked with a couple of fans.”
R.Kelly’s 19 minute track can be said to be a replacement to “Trapped in The Closet” series appears to be targeted at shedding more light on the dangers that have acted as impediments to the singer in recent times.
“I admit I fuck with all the ladies, that’s both older and young ladies (ladies, yeah)/But tell me how they call it pedophile because that shit is crazy (crazy),” R.Kelly goes on. It quite appears the above lines are in response to allegations that the singer has a group of ladies, most of them way younger than he is which he has kept as sex slaves. “You may have opinions (opinions)/But really am I supposed to go to jail or lose my career because of your opinion/Yeah, go ahead and stone me, point your finger at me (stone me, yeah, yeah)/Turn the world against me, but only god can mute me.” It is most likely that the line “only god can mute me” is a response to a popular campaign known as the #MuteRKelly campaign, a campaign in which online music platforms, record labels, Tickmaster, and venues were urged to stop associating with the embattled American music legend.
Although a lot of the admissions such as smoking, drinking, telling women lies, bedding his friend’s lady, being a regular at strip clubs, etc., which R.Kelly had to make in his latest 19 minute track are not new to the public, quite a number of his admissions in his new song are things that he has tried very hard to keep private.
At a point in the song, the singer says: “Now the truth in this message is I’m a broke-ass legend, the only reason I stay on tour is cause I gotta pay my rent… I never thought it would come to this, to be the most disrespected artist/So I had to write a song about it/Because they always take my words and twist it/Believe me, it’s hard to admit all this.”
Although the superstar singer has strongly rebuffed the “cult” accusations in the last couple of years, it appears that he takes his time to address them with his new song. As regards issues of having a “sex cult”, this is what R.Kelly has to say: “I admit I am not perfect/ I never said I was perfect/Say I’m abusing these women/What the fuck, that’s some absurd shit/they brainwashed, really?/Kidnapped, Really?/can’t eat, really?/Real talk, that sounds silly.” The superstar goes on to ask; “What’s the definition of a cult? /What’s the definition of a sex slave? Go to dictionary, look it up, let me know, I’ll be here waiting/ Now I admit I got some girls who love me, they pull they hair/Now I admit they love me talk dirty when I pull they hair/Some like me to spank them, some like to give brain/ And what some of these girls want is too much for a radio station.”
It also appears that R. Kelly took time to address the rumor of the women that are believed to be his sex slaves. He accuses them of having plans to take advantage of him for their own benefits. However, when it appears that everything did not go according to plan, they cook up stories to make him look bad
(“Don’t push your daughter in my face/And tell me that it’s okay/Because your agenda is to get paid/And get mad when it don’t go your way”). It appears that R.Kelly talks directly to Joycelyn Savages’s parents at a particular point in the song. This is perhaps because they accused him of kidnapping her after she got introduced to him by her parents. This is what he had to say about that;
“And if you really, really wanna know/Her father dropped her off at my show/ And told this boy to put her on stage,” he goes on. “I admit that she was over age/I admit that I was feeling’ me/ I admit that that’s the sh-that comes with/ being a celebrity/ I ain’t chasing these ladies/These ladies are chasing me, yeah.” Although Joyselyn is yet to respond to R.Kelly’s claims in his latest release, over the past few years, the 21 year old aspiring artiste has made appearance in quite a number of videos. In all these videos, she has made it clear that every single thing that took place between her and the superstar singer happened consensually. She also went on to make it clear that she was not kidnapped by R.Kelly contrary to general perception, but that she did not keep in touch with her parents on purpose.
Although there are no stories of the violation which R.Kelly suffered when he was a child, in his 19 minute long song, he made it public knowledge that he was violated by a member of his family whose name he did not state in the song. (“Now, I admit a family member touched me/From a child to the age of 14/While I laid asleep, took my virginity”). Although his song is full of confessions and shots at his accusers, some of the most direct lyrics of his new song were fired at a journalist that seemed excited to see the singer’s career go into oblivion.
“To Jim DeRogatis, whatever your name is (whatever your name is)/You been tryna destroy me for 25 whole years/Writing’ the same stories over and over against,” this is what he has to say about freelance journalist and one-time Chicago Sun-Times writer who appears to be personally interested in rubbing the singer’s name in the mud. “Off my name, you done went and made yourself a career/ But guess what? I pray for you and family, and all my other enemies/ I’m not gonna let y’all steal my joy, Im just gonna keep on doin me.”
The long-winded 19 minutes song also puts the spotlight very briefly on the singers union to a minor known as Aaliyah. In addition to this, some lines of the song are focused on a sextape which hasted for 27 minutes. This sex tape was an encounter with a minor and was therefore, responsible for the singer standing on trial for child pornography. The following lines from his song are what Kelly has to say as regards child pornography accusations: “We both turned off our phone, we drinked, I smoked, we talked I admit that I tore it off (our phone, we talked, it off)/ From my good points to my faults (faults0/She said What about Aaliyah said/’/ Love, she said What about the tape/’/ I said hush/I said my lawyer said don’t say noth/But I can tell you I’ve been set up (up).”
Saying “my work has nothing to do with my private life,” the song gets concluded by the R &B star telling fans to “stay the fuck out of my business,” he goes on to dare any one that has the needed guts to make some accusations against him in his presence and not behind his back. “There is one thing that’s for sure/And I want to make this shit clear/I done lived my voice and represented my country/For 31 fucking’ years/Damn it, I admit.”